i lived happily

oops. i have been so long dint update my bloggy.. and now im really statisfied with my live..erm erm.. wish i can always and ever be so happy, can i? well, thats nothing to else to talk about my life cos im just sweet as well :) teehee! its already 2:37am right now, and i thinking of wat should i do since im not able to sleep on this time and so ~ update my bloggy. hmmmm ~ ah be was so damn busy for this coming " ghost month " and i think she's really exhausted with her job. ok lar, i don mind if she have to work until midnight and cannot come penang to accompany. cos im a obidient gal as well and waiting her always. hehe.. last 2weeks and i keep on shopping * ahuh, ah Be called me to shop one * ~ to buy her some outfits since she is Fucking busy and there's no such time for her to shop or even come to Penang on everyday, DUH ==" and then she complained about me?! hahaha,watever lar, no doubt!

finally, this monday is our happy 19th anni and well, she couldnt accompany me, sobx ~its okay, she earned money wat, to support my poor financial problem. one more, my mom is going to divorce with my dad, haix. never thought this day will come to me.. as i used to be the most pampered daughter for our family. nvm lar, cos i want my mom to be happy! this is the one of my wish, she happy and im happy too :) oops, my eldest sis came back last week and until the day she went back she dint give me any money. WTF?! i slept on the floor so many days for her so she could sleep well on my bed and i get no repay back! haix..cincai lar... as long as she give my mom will do. haha =P
hmm hmm.. some pictures to update too...

















the sweetest us ♥






















































oh! im fucking sleepy now. good night to my dearest and everyone.
H1N1 attacked to Penang and pls beaware. care for urself and others.♥

sweetest days of life.

well, im getting excited for the coming days when my mom and her friends going to Genting Highland for 2days trip. and i can do watever i like in my house. and chilling everywhere as unlimited.

yeah ~ the 1st night, went to upper but not clubbing at mois or fame. went to ZenjiBar ( spelling correct? ) and drink, drank, drunk. and i feel like recently my capablity for drinking beer was not bad. haha, so proud of myself. =="

for the most i can feel sweetness is my bebe can accompany me for these 2days. Wao! Siok ~

the continuous night we went to watch Transformer 2. luckily we went to bought ticket for this movie at afternoon, and was crowded like hell there. Hmm,it was a good movie, touched. but the story makes me miserable.

thumbs up for Transformer =)

after the movie my bebe and I went back home, unfortunately this was the last night i can hug my bebe to sleep for the whole week. so sad. but im statisfied for the accompanies from you, be!

the next day when we woke up it's already 1pm, and im skipping my class again. haha =P then be wanna back to her house and clear some stuff so she dropped my by a dental clinic. im going to my teeth consulation, yeah ~ i can't wait for that, ive been waiting for 3years and since i graduated from my high sch and im not going to any consulation at clinic anymore. it was painful as i thought. doctor keep calling me not to be nervous and just relax. cos i keep struggling, PAINFUL wat! u guys wont ever felt wat i felt la ~ overall and it's pain! and i cost RM108 for my teeth consulation, and when my be came and fetch me back and she was like hurtful cos i spent so much for that, haha. paiseh lar...

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

thank you, my ♥

-- end --

我没有变。

笔 ~

我刚刚上网,看到

你在facebook post "是你变了吗"的mv.

突然很心酸,

哭了~

不是我懦弱,

只是觉得你怎么会觉得我变了?

我还是没变。

我还是一样的我。

不曾改变过。

你也不要去怀疑，

我是否变了吗？

因为在我心中，

还是一样的爱你。

Pajamas Party

pajamas party held on saturday night which is small yong's birthday party.
happy birthday to you.

pictures will be upload soon ~~~~~~~~

bun bun bun

today is Wednesday, nothing else to do so just went to night market @ farlim there with friends. as we all got nothing to do, and small Yong bday party held on this coming saturday and she planned to have a pyjamas party, LOL. then they went there to buy pyjamas. at first,me and bianca ignore them and we reject we wear, eventually, we broke our promise and we bought. let me think about who has bought too... hmm... small yong*she's the main character, ahBe,jammy,ah di,di san, bought male's pyjamas. then lefted me,bianca,cartoon bought female's one. haha, words for them: LAME ==" haha :) here's the pictures of mine and ahBe's pyjamas.










i think it's gonna be funny and crazy night for us, teehee =P
afterwards, we passby a lot which selling kid's toys and we attracted by a cute stuff. here it's ~































isn't cute?looks like a bun right? actually it was a soft toy which can hang on our handphone. then i bluff bianca and told her it was a bun and i bought it for her as her dinner. she smell at it and she said wat a good smelling.. i called her to eat and she was like kinda curious and Be keep on laughing @ that moment. lastly she really bite on that 'bun' then we all laught @ her loudly. LOL, bianca, don't be so easily to get fool by others okay? haha ~ by the way, the bun is really so damn cute. we bought 2 and one for me and another for my Be.

i like the bun :) hehe
thank you, Be

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movie day.

bebe and I went to watch terminator on sunday. suppose should be watch with all our friends, but end up left me and bebe went to watch, LOL.

back to the movie, TERMINATOR SALVATION, i was really excited to catch up with it.

but the result after movie let me disappointed.

not as good as i expected. @.@"

or i am too picky?

人心险恶。

他妈的，姐姐。不断地为家里制造出好多的麻烦。

这次决不例外：

几个月前节节认识到一个男人（甲）

还带他回来家里，我和妈妈知道后，以为是她男朋友，所以不去理会。

怎么知道，这就是我家人噩梦的开始。

他们在一起不久，有多了一个男人（乙）

而姐姐却和甲男生开始减少联络。

我很好奇，所以就问了姐姐，他说他们根本没有开始过。

算咯~我也不多问。

只是偶尔会和妈妈讨论起，我劝妈妈不要让姐姐带男生回家，毕竟家里只有妈妈和我。

没有男生，万一什么事情发生，两个手无寸铁的女人怎么应付？

姐姐也只好答应了。

可怕的事情发生了，姐姐开始述说甲男人的来历。

害到我和妈妈都没有一晚好睡，怕死了。

据说甲不是普通的人，它背后有不可告人的秘密。

我姐姐知道了，所以他要逼我姐姐。

姐姐不知道后来就认识乙男生，姐姐说，乙能保护她。

听了也比较放心。

怎么知道前两天，甲来到我驾楼下要打姐姐，姐姐就去报警。

还申请了保护令，保护自己和我们。

甲还对着我姐姐说：我不会放过你，你小心你家人！

这句话听了，我哭了，因为真的怕，怕姐姐在外面有事，又怕妈妈一个人在家。

这几晚姐姐都没有回家睡觉。

就在昨晚3点半，有个男人来敲我家门，那时我熟睡了。

妈妈被吓醒，走到厨房开窗口看，原来是一个陌生的男人要找我姐姐。

于是妈妈就说姐姐不在，那个男人就在门外大声喊：

这家人家里有白粉！

也不知道为什么，妈妈竟然不踩他。人有它在外面大呼小叫的。

妈妈也没有叫我醒，知道刚才下午她才告诉我姐姐，而我也是刚知道的。

所以说：这几天我只能乖乖在家里，因为我不想把妈妈一个人丢在家。

家里没有爸爸，没有男人。妈妈也会怕！

为什么从以前到现在，姐姐不断地为家里制造出超级多的麻烦。

而每次，都让人心惊胆跳。

拜托，妈妈都几十岁的人了，可不可以让他好好的享受生活？

而我，这几天早上出门也都特别敏感。

就因为甲的这句：小心你的家人！

你们这些人，一定会有报应的！

有谁可以保护我吗？也保护我妈妈吧~

triedness day

monday - new beginning of a week. as usual, went to coll study from 9am to 1pm. then be's called me and informed me that she was working at penang today :) tee hee

1pm.. be came to fetch me at college then we went back to her shop and wait for sharon to meet us for lunch. wat a fulled day, getting fatter liao la DUH =="

letme think about wat i ate for my lunch today:

2packs of nasi lemak

1 teh O ais ( my fav )

4 balacen chicken wings, only wings side

1 laksa but i din't finished all cos was too full

lastly ~ felt uncomfortable

den went back to be's shop and wait until 6pm - closing her shop.

then snapped pictures while doing nothing, OH yea, my be wore her new shirt which brought from SeeD.

and i liked the shirt very much, which can hide her big stom

ach and oily fats.

teehee ~

let pictures talk...

be playing facebook games

AWH ! i was damn tired for today, i slept not more than 4 hours.

afterwards, jammy and wind came and meet us then we go dinner together and went back home to prepare everything for tonight badminton.

that's all to share ~

- end -

A white Night

it's a White Night.

Tho, recently was feeling kinda boring with my life.

exhausted for previous life, too complicated.

everything comes around and goes around.

never stops.

wondering when only i can leave the busy world and live peacefully.

can i have it with simple, lovely, nicely?

whenever anyone who comes into my life...

PLEASE! i had it enough. IT'S FULLED for me!

HELP HELP HELP~

Eventually, i couldn't fulfilled my wishes

what a sad case

:(

depressed.

these two days was feeling depressed with unreasonable.

suddenly felt like the earth stop turning and the same as im not happy at all.

just recovered from my illness then now came to her.

and i was alone at home tonight.

doing nothing else. keep on access to the internet.

blogging, playing facebook games...

finding stuff to do so that will keep myself busy and stop think confusedly.

hopefully the coming days will be alright =)

以前，现在，未来。

以前的我，天真得很。

不知道什么是喜怒哀乐。

总是以为，一个人摇摇大摆地，自我地过：

不去理会身边人的感受。

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

现在的我，顾前顾后。

开始尝到了喜怒哀乐。

不会以为，眼前就是最好的，因为人家说：

想要得就要自己去争取。

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

未来的我，难以想象。

不敢奢侈什么美好的生活。

只求每天都能快乐的，这才是我要的未来：

但我的未来我怎么知道？

- 完毕 -

illness

The weather is very bad for several weeks, im not good in take caring myself so that's why i fell ill.

was feeling dizzy all the day. @.@

since last week thursday went to watch movie - Night @ the museum with my friends, well, that day i caught fever but still insisted to watch on that night.

after movie then went back home and applied medicine then just fell asleep.

( a good reason for me to skipped classes ) -- Tee Hee!

then friday was recovered and started feeling uncomfortable these 2 days.

In fact, was afraid of the swine flu la.

as well as i din't vomit, diarrhea will do lar.

i just cough and fever only.

but my mom said have to quarantine me to the hospital if not the virus will infect to them.

so sad to hear that!

another day for me to skip my class with a good reason :P

well, the next day i woke up and was feeling much more better.

thanks for all my friends and she for concerning me.

words for her:

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

pls don ever said that words to me in future.

u don't even know how hurt was that.

i was feeling bad these two days and i applogized for my bad tempered to you, my bebe..sorry!

counting down the days for coming Sunday -Terminator Salvation!!!

幸福的滋味

最近不知道为什么心情很好。
我的笔的心情更加好，最近很会哄我。。
是不是作了亏心事啊？哈哈
突然觉得自己也和你一样幸福。
是因为我们都有彼此，互相爱惜彼此。
我们看到朋友中，那些恋人在感情中失败了，
我们会伤心，所以更加懂得去珍惜在一起的时光。
老公，今天和你‘打架‘抓伤了你，哈哈
对不起哦，你应该很痛吧？
因为我的指甲没有剪，所以刮上了你。
但是你也是心甘情愿的拉，都叫你说那句话，你有不说。
坏蛋你~
但是我好爱你


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ - 晚安 - ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

another weekend

was doing nothing with my weekend.
and every weeks seems like the same.
hanging to mall, shopping, watch movie and bla bla bla.
this week i planned to buy a formal shirt for my NIGHTMARE.
which stands for working..
not really working la, considered as training for my final project.
it's wasted money la.
i bought 2shirts on few days ago.
cheap stuff tho. nice for me too.
then went to shop at padini, nichii but unable to get wat i want.
then ~ idea comes.. ELEMENT!
yeah,i like the OL wears there.
then bought a top which cost 79.90
i spent only 50 and the rest amount..... haha, my bebe spent for me.
target --> shoes,skirt and coat.
for my coming nightmare.
some pictures took in gurney.


- end -

life goes on.

HAPPY 16MONTHS ANNIVERSARY, IT'S OUR DAY (17TH OF MAY)

a happy day. afternoon went to northam hotel and doing nothing.
cos my aunty visiting me.
so sad that i unable to swim and playing jacuzzi :(
here some pictures.


the jacuzzi is ready for bianca.im not taking part of that =="

jammy,bianca,lao and wind


banana, wat cha doing?


me and my bebe


jazz swimming, she's the only one swim.


me


wind



lao


jammy, wow!i like this picha.


took from toilet.

DUH ~
but im happy at the night time.
bebe accompany me to sleep.
although it was only once a week, but im satisfied with this kind of life.
i dislike to stay with my partner all the time.
we used to have SOME privacy.
some times to let us to something which without each other by side.


there's something i afraid nowadays.
was that H1N1 virus.
attacked to penang now.
who will be the next one.
who knows?
and life still have to goes on.


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知足。

原来四周围的一切是那么的美好，只要停留脚步.

仔细用心去发掘，其实幸福就在身边。

但其实幸福不是每个人都能拥有，拥有的人却不懂得去珍惜.

失去的人往往才懂得什么是珍惜。

其实珍惜并不容易，因为通常人的心理都是同一个想法的。

就算回去珍惜，也许只是暂时而已，所以这个世界上并没有所谓的天长地久。

人~活这个世界上都是向前行的，并没有想要往后退，或是秩序原来的生活.

因为每个人都有“贪念”。

贪念就是造成悲伤的开始。

因为人不会知足，就算现在拥有很好的了，还是会想要追求更好的。

有更好的在前方，谁不想要？谁不想去追求？

也许没有勇气，也许你有自知之明.

明白现在的生活符合你所谓现在的要求，所以不去追求更好的。

有的则懂得分轻重，直到追求到更好的东西时，往往也都会同时失去了现在的一切。

得到最好的人，也不懂得去珍惜，不会停下脚步.

因为他们认为还有更好的在前方等着你。

这些愚昧的人，永远也都不会感到快乐.

因为他们从没停下脚步去观察四周围的一切，其实他们拥有了比很多人更好的.

但是他们不会珍惜。

其实，活在这个世界上，是为了什么？

爱情，亲情，友情，还是金钱，未来？

其实你已经很幸福了，请你停下你繁忙的脚步.

看看身边的人，你爱的人，你幸福吗？

regret for the decision i made.

OMG! i so damn super duper regret now.

for my hair cut and it was so short.
aikz, and my bebe get shocked.
so that i can imagine my friend's face expression when they first saw me in short hair.
when at the salon, i was still confusing for whether short or long hair.
manatau my sis keep nagging me ~
then here comes my short hair.
BUT im now having straightening.
looks like nerd.
was too straight for that.
my hairstylist said that it will be more natural after one month.
DAMN! ONE MONTH.
how am i suppose to hang out within this one month.
GOSH ~ haih.
but it was too late to say all that.

at first i decided to cut like that.
when i was in 2007.


and now, became short like this.


i have to wait another more 2-3years to become long hair back.
sucks!
this was the ever worst decision that i made.

- end -

how how how?

now was thinking to change a hairstyle.
short hair or long hair nicer?
bebe doesn't wants me to cut.
but i like my short hair when after i graduate.
but abit grudge.
in long hair...
people thought im 23,24years old woman.
that's really sad.
im only 20 this year.
oppositely my mom and sis said i look good in short hair.
wat to do wat to do?
comment pls ~

I love you, MOM

For me, the world's greatest only Mother.

My mother means a lot to me and so she's my everything.
Whether in the spiritual support, spiritual encouragement to me, all of the infinite.
Because there is a mother, so here I am. Some life in a single-parent family, even some people is an orphan. So I'm proud of you, is glorious, because i had you as my mother. I was the happiest child in this world. Although mother sometimes stupid, but she still gave her life for us. Spending her life to teach her kid to be a good people.

therefore, there comes Mother's day.
celebrate in every year,the second week of May.
this year was held on sunday.
i took my mum to dinner with my beloved and friends.
as i dono how to make her feels better than that.
after dinner, we went to wine house.
the feeling was like my mum got so many children to celebrate with her.
the next day, esther decided to take my mum to lunch at qb.
so after finished my class, we went to qb " nippon yataimura " to celebrate the belate Mother's day.


esther - wishing her daughter jesslyn to telling her " happy Mother's day " too.

ebi ten temaki - my fav

my teppanyaki chicken set

p/s: i din take any photo of my mom when celebrating :( LOLx


to my dearest Mummy Koay Bee Bee:

although i couldn't afford to let you happy, but overall, i love you, mom.
even though im always outside with my friends, and not really spending my time with you, hope you will forgive me.
no one will replace you in my heart.
and you are my greatest mom ever. thank you, mom.

wishlist (:

i need money, cash indeed.
many many money, come to me.
i want to buy many things and do many things too.
my bebe called me to save money.
and wind suggest that we should save RM2 per day.
Planner: from June start, till next year June.
i think will be more than 600.
and we can have a trip to P.Redang.
yea, that was what i wish to go too.
beautiful island. SIOK ~
is it working?
but currently i was bit jam for my cash money lar.
my hair straightener spoil and i need to go to buy a new one.
instead of that,my sis and i plan to do hair straighten cos it will be more easier for us.
ARGH! i hate curly hair.
makes me sick man!
final exam registration coming.
need to collect from my dad.
haih ~ how i wish i can work now.
to save money by my own.
and now im going to wear formal for every monday.
wish can get some formal shirts or maybe coat?
wow, looks cool.
money again.

oh yeah ~ i can access to a wireless network at my home now.
so surprise and happy as well.
it has been around 1months i i cant access to any network at home since the maxis broadband been canceled.
haha :)
today, monday, badminton day.
wasn't really in mood yet.
bit tiring, sleepy.
i think i should rest at home tmr night.
no more outgoing.
thanks for banana to help me to post songs in my blog.
:) xie xie ni (:

Me to You

currently i was in the college and doing nothing.
trying to surf the net to access to facebook manatau kena blocked.
kek ki !
damn sui siao.
summore blocked the firewall netgear so that student cant access to the certain website especially those chit chatting website.
they should blocked all MSN access too.
now changed a new coordinator.
and all those stupid rules.
monday with formal, no earings ( luckily i din wear ), no accessories.
tues - thurs can wear casual, finally, glad to hear that, a good news. but thursday im not attening any classes. so wed night i can go anywhere i want.
friday with olympia Tee. i don have it too.
haih, every semester when a new coordinator came, then some new rules pop-out.
those fucking damn rules.

aiyo, was sleepy lar, wanna go home and hug my ball ball sleep.
last night was sms'ing with her.
having a bad mood and a bad night.
was feeling sad, really!
and currently, we were like the familiar strangers.
something that i really couldn't understand. makes my so miserable.
i need some help, man! save me ~
good new was happened on last few days ago, she was staying in my house for 4nights.
i love that feeling. and i wish can last longer and longer even cant stopped.
but it cant.
Happiness is always so short live. sadness always cames after happiness.
makes me like falling down to the well.


but all of all, i still love you!i do really mean it!

- end -

holiday.

yea,this is the first day for my semester7. my last semester too. was so glad.
something started to worried and confusing too.
wat am i going to be after graduate?
haha ~ nevermind lar,goes with the flows ma.
well, what i need to mentioned here is about my holidays.
gonna share with u guys.

friday night - QEii
with mum and aunty, my eldest sis from aus. and fellow friends.
like we used to be,clubbing, drinking, smoking. all the way same.
and that's how we like too.
pichas time.


me and banana

bianca, nana, me and laoren


sweet couple of the day

another event.

the tuesday night. fong's bday at Red.
happy birthday yea :)

there are one video when we singing bday song.
and another one more is a funny video from jammy and small yong as well.

sorry about i dono how to rotate video as well :S

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