A white Night

it's a White Night.

Tho, recently was feeling kinda boring with my life.

exhausted for previous life, too complicated.

everything comes around and goes around.

never stops.

wondering when only i can leave the busy world and live peacefully.

can i have it with simple, lovely, nicely?

whenever anyone who comes into my life...

PLEASE! i had it enough. IT'S FULLED for me!

HELP HELP HELP~

Eventually, i couldn't fulfilled my wishes

what a sad case

:(

depressed.

these two days was feeling depressed with unreasonable.

suddenly felt like the earth stop turning and the same as im not happy at all.

just recovered from my illness then now came to her.

and i was alone at home tonight.

doing nothing else. keep on access to the internet.

blogging, playing facebook games...

finding stuff to do so that will keep myself busy and stop think confusedly.

hopefully the coming days will be alright =)

以前，现在，未来。

以前的我，天真得很。

不知道什么是喜怒哀乐。

总是以为，一个人摇摇大摆地，自我地过：

不去理会身边人的感受。

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

现在的我，顾前顾后。

开始尝到了喜怒哀乐。

不会以为，眼前就是最好的，因为人家说：

想要得就要自己去争取。

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

未来的我，难以想象。

不敢奢侈什么美好的生活。

只求每天都能快乐的，这才是我要的未来：

但我的未来我怎么知道？

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illness

The weather is very bad for several weeks, im not good in take caring myself so that's why i fell ill.

was feeling dizzy all the day. @.@

since last week thursday went to watch movie - Night @ the museum with my friends, well, that day i caught fever but still insisted to watch on that night.

after movie then went back home and applied medicine then just fell asleep.

( a good reason for me to skipped classes ) -- Tee Hee!

then friday was recovered and started feeling uncomfortable these 2 days.

In fact, was afraid of the swine flu la.

as well as i din't vomit, diarrhea will do lar.

i just cough and fever only.

but my mom said have to quarantine me to the hospital if not the virus will infect to them.

so sad to hear that!

another day for me to skip my class with a good reason :P

well, the next day i woke up and was feeling much more better.

thanks for all my friends and she for concerning me.

words for her:

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

pls don ever said that words to me in future.

u don't even know how hurt was that.

i was feeling bad these two days and i applogized for my bad tempered to you, my bebe..sorry!

counting down the days for coming Sunday -Terminator Salvation!!!

幸福的滋味

最近不知道为什么心情很好。
我的笔的心情更加好，最近很会哄我。。
是不是作了亏心事啊？哈哈
突然觉得自己也和你一样幸福。
是因为我们都有彼此，互相爱惜彼此。
我们看到朋友中，那些恋人在感情中失败了，
我们会伤心，所以更加懂得去珍惜在一起的时光。
老公，今天和你‘打架‘抓伤了你，哈哈
对不起哦，你应该很痛吧？
因为我的指甲没有剪，所以刮上了你。
但是你也是心甘情愿的拉，都叫你说那句话，你有不说。
坏蛋你~
但是我好爱你


♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ - 晚安 - ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

another weekend

was doing nothing with my weekend.
and every weeks seems like the same.
hanging to mall, shopping, watch movie and bla bla bla.
this week i planned to buy a formal shirt for my NIGHTMARE.
which stands for working..
not really working la, considered as training for my final project.
it's wasted money la.
i bought 2shirts on few days ago.
cheap stuff tho. nice for me too.
then went to shop at padini, nichii but unable to get wat i want.
then ~ idea comes.. ELEMENT!
yeah,i like the OL wears there.
then bought a top which cost 79.90
i spent only 50 and the rest amount..... haha, my bebe spent for me.
target --> shoes,skirt and coat.
for my coming nightmare.
some pictures took in gurney.


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life goes on.

HAPPY 16MONTHS ANNIVERSARY, IT'S OUR DAY (17TH OF MAY)

a happy day. afternoon went to northam hotel and doing nothing.
cos my aunty visiting me.
so sad that i unable to swim and playing jacuzzi :(
here some pictures.


the jacuzzi is ready for bianca.im not taking part of that =="

jammy,bianca,lao and wind


banana, wat cha doing?


me and my bebe


jazz swimming, she's the only one swim.


me


wind



lao


jammy, wow!i like this picha.


took from toilet.

DUH ~
but im happy at the night time.
bebe accompany me to sleep.
although it was only once a week, but im satisfied with this kind of life.
i dislike to stay with my partner all the time.
we used to have SOME privacy.
some times to let us to something which without each other by side.


there's something i afraid nowadays.
was that H1N1 virus.
attacked to penang now.
who will be the next one.
who knows?
and life still have to goes on.


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知足。

原来四周围的一切是那么的美好，只要停留脚步.

仔细用心去发掘，其实幸福就在身边。

但其实幸福不是每个人都能拥有，拥有的人却不懂得去珍惜.

失去的人往往才懂得什么是珍惜。

其实珍惜并不容易，因为通常人的心理都是同一个想法的。

就算回去珍惜，也许只是暂时而已，所以这个世界上并没有所谓的天长地久。

人~活这个世界上都是向前行的，并没有想要往后退，或是秩序原来的生活.

因为每个人都有“贪念”。

贪念就是造成悲伤的开始。

因为人不会知足，就算现在拥有很好的了，还是会想要追求更好的。

有更好的在前方，谁不想要？谁不想去追求？

也许没有勇气，也许你有自知之明.

明白现在的生活符合你所谓现在的要求，所以不去追求更好的。

有的则懂得分轻重，直到追求到更好的东西时，往往也都会同时失去了现在的一切。

得到最好的人，也不懂得去珍惜，不会停下脚步.

因为他们认为还有更好的在前方等着你。

这些愚昧的人，永远也都不会感到快乐.

因为他们从没停下脚步去观察四周围的一切，其实他们拥有了比很多人更好的.

但是他们不会珍惜。

其实，活在这个世界上，是为了什么？

爱情，亲情，友情，还是金钱，未来？

其实你已经很幸福了，请你停下你繁忙的脚步.

看看身边的人，你爱的人，你幸福吗？

regret for the decision i made.

OMG! i so damn super duper regret now.

for my hair cut and it was so short.
aikz, and my bebe get shocked.
so that i can imagine my friend's face expression when they first saw me in short hair.
when at the salon, i was still confusing for whether short or long hair.
manatau my sis keep nagging me ~
then here comes my short hair.
BUT im now having straightening.
looks like nerd.
was too straight for that.
my hairstylist said that it will be more natural after one month.
DAMN! ONE MONTH.
how am i suppose to hang out within this one month.
GOSH ~ haih.
but it was too late to say all that.

at first i decided to cut like that.
when i was in 2007.


and now, became short like this.


i have to wait another more 2-3years to become long hair back.
sucks!
this was the ever worst decision that i made.

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how how how?

now was thinking to change a hairstyle.
short hair or long hair nicer?
bebe doesn't wants me to cut.
but i like my short hair when after i graduate.
but abit grudge.
in long hair...
people thought im 23,24years old woman.
that's really sad.
im only 20 this year.
oppositely my mom and sis said i look good in short hair.
wat to do wat to do?
comment pls ~

I love you, MOM

For me, the world's greatest only Mother.

My mother means a lot to me and so she's my everything.
Whether in the spiritual support, spiritual encouragement to me, all of the infinite.
Because there is a mother, so here I am. Some life in a single-parent family, even some people is an orphan. So I'm proud of you, is glorious, because i had you as my mother. I was the happiest child in this world. Although mother sometimes stupid, but she still gave her life for us. Spending her life to teach her kid to be a good people.

therefore, there comes Mother's day.
celebrate in every year,the second week of May.
this year was held on sunday.
i took my mum to dinner with my beloved and friends.
as i dono how to make her feels better than that.
after dinner, we went to wine house.
the feeling was like my mum got so many children to celebrate with her.
the next day, esther decided to take my mum to lunch at qb.
so after finished my class, we went to qb " nippon yataimura " to celebrate the belate Mother's day.


esther - wishing her daughter jesslyn to telling her " happy Mother's day " too.

ebi ten temaki - my fav

my teppanyaki chicken set

p/s: i din take any photo of my mom when celebrating :( LOLx


to my dearest Mummy Koay Bee Bee:

although i couldn't afford to let you happy, but overall, i love you, mom.
even though im always outside with my friends, and not really spending my time with you, hope you will forgive me.
no one will replace you in my heart.
and you are my greatest mom ever. thank you, mom.

wishlist (:

i need money, cash indeed.
many many money, come to me.
i want to buy many things and do many things too.
my bebe called me to save money.
and wind suggest that we should save RM2 per day.
Planner: from June start, till next year June.
i think will be more than 600.
and we can have a trip to P.Redang.
yea, that was what i wish to go too.
beautiful island. SIOK ~
is it working?
but currently i was bit jam for my cash money lar.
my hair straightener spoil and i need to go to buy a new one.
instead of that,my sis and i plan to do hair straighten cos it will be more easier for us.
ARGH! i hate curly hair.
makes me sick man!
final exam registration coming.
need to collect from my dad.
haih ~ how i wish i can work now.
to save money by my own.
and now im going to wear formal for every monday.
wish can get some formal shirts or maybe coat?
wow, looks cool.
money again.

oh yeah ~ i can access to a wireless network at my home now.
so surprise and happy as well.
it has been around 1months i i cant access to any network at home since the maxis broadband been canceled.
haha :)
today, monday, badminton day.
wasn't really in mood yet.
bit tiring, sleepy.
i think i should rest at home tmr night.
no more outgoing.
thanks for banana to help me to post songs in my blog.
:) xie xie ni (:

Me to You

currently i was in the college and doing nothing.
trying to surf the net to access to facebook manatau kena blocked.
kek ki !
damn sui siao.
summore blocked the firewall netgear so that student cant access to the certain website especially those chit chatting website.
they should blocked all MSN access too.
now changed a new coordinator.
and all those stupid rules.
monday with formal, no earings ( luckily i din wear ), no accessories.
tues - thurs can wear casual, finally, glad to hear that, a good news. but thursday im not attening any classes. so wed night i can go anywhere i want.
friday with olympia Tee. i don have it too.
haih, every semester when a new coordinator came, then some new rules pop-out.
those fucking damn rules.

aiyo, was sleepy lar, wanna go home and hug my ball ball sleep.
last night was sms'ing with her.
having a bad mood and a bad night.
was feeling sad, really!
and currently, we were like the familiar strangers.
something that i really couldn't understand. makes my so miserable.
i need some help, man! save me ~
good new was happened on last few days ago, she was staying in my house for 4nights.
i love that feeling. and i wish can last longer and longer even cant stopped.
but it cant.
Happiness is always so short live. sadness always cames after happiness.
makes me like falling down to the well.


but all of all, i still love you!i do really mean it!

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holiday.

yea,this is the first day for my semester7. my last semester too. was so glad.
something started to worried and confusing too.
wat am i going to be after graduate?
haha ~ nevermind lar,goes with the flows ma.
well, what i need to mentioned here is about my holidays.
gonna share with u guys.

friday night - QEii
with mum and aunty, my eldest sis from aus. and fellow friends.
like we used to be,clubbing, drinking, smoking. all the way same.
and that's how we like too.
pichas time.


me and banana

bianca, nana, me and laoren


sweet couple of the day

another event.

the tuesday night. fong's bday at Red.
happy birthday yea :)

there are one video when we singing bday song.
and another one more is a funny video from jammy and small yong as well.

sorry about i dono how to rotate video as well :S

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back to blogspot.

haha,well, act i from blogspot too.

then changed it to xanga.

now,changing back to blogspot again.
there was something that i dono how to play in xanga, like: posting songs into my profile and etc.
somehow it always sign out automatically.
pek cek!
oops ~ but all my blogs gone.
can someone help me?
how to post those old blogs into my new account?
damn! i realized i was really stupid as they said.
let it be a brand new start.

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